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Today I am marrying the man I have loved for so long. Forever. This is unreal. Panic sets in. "Nonononononono!"
We walk into Burger King -- of all places -- he in his suit, me in my dress. It's just hours before the ceremony.
"What do you want?" he asks me.
"I don't know. I don't think I want anything," I reply, wondering how I am going to tell him.
I'm not ready. We can't do this today. I'm not ready. I haven't got your ring yet!
We sit down and talk about the upcoming afternoon: final details, the people we're going to see, what we're having for dinner, idle chit-chat, forever love.
Oh no, he has no idea. I can't tell him! I have to tell him. I don't have his ring! I didn't have enough time!
Inside I'm an absolute disaster zone of panic, and I don't know what to do.
We head back to the house where everyone is waiting, and I still haven't told him yet. He leaves for the church, and I'm left with my best friend and mom -- the two women I trust most in this world. I have to tell them. They will help me figure this out.
And then I wake up. I'm hot and sweaty. I catch my breath and sit up. It was just a dream. Yet, it was so real. What does it mean?
Of course I passed it off as a silly dream and went back to sleep to have another silly dream, but as today progressed, I couldn't help but remember it and wonder where that all came from.
No, I'm not planning a wedding; I'm not even engaged, but am I afraid I won't be ready? Am I nervous about planning a wedding someday? Or is this something deeper? Am I afraid of forever? It is an awful long time, after all.
I'm not sure what it means, and I'm not the type to dwell on "bad" dreams. The good ones I'll dwell on for weeks, however, so if the dream fairies could send me some of those, that would be great!
Do you remember your dreams? Do you have dreams you can't make sense of, that you think may be trying to tell you something? Do you believe dreams have meaning in our lives?