Ever-Changing Reflection

Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding... It is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self. Therefore trust the physician, and drink his remedy in silence and tranquility.
~ Kahlil Gibran

Friday, November 6, 2009

Green Ink and Shamrock Pride

{Sorry for the lack of pictures. This happened before digital photography was available to the masses!}

I was never popular in high school. I had a group of friends that gradually grew over four years so that we were 20+ by graduation, but I wasn't "in" with the cheerleaders or the intellectuals (who ironically all grew up in the town I live in now). I was with the "outsiders." We were the moshpit of rejects, basically. If you didn't fit into a clique, you belonged in "our group." I liked it that way, and I'm still friends with many of those people today.

Along with that, I wasn't very involved. I didn't play any sports, and I never had time for after-school activities with my rigorous schedule of dance classes. Then junior year came along.

I decided I was a writer, and I excelled in my English classes. I started hanging out a lot with my childhood best friend -- a boy who attended an all-boys' parochial school on the other side of the state. He was on the newspaper staff at his school, and he hung out with all of the other newspaper kids. So I hung out with the newspaper kids, and it was the clique I had been looking for.

This wasn't your ordinary high school newspaper. These guys worked HARD. They would get to school at 6 a.m. to work on the paper before classes, and they'd stay after school until 11 p.m. to finish. They published monthly (that was a big deal in high school). They had an office. They had positions. And equipment. I read their paper, and I was hooked. I longed to be that dedicated -- to make that kind of contribution.

My school didn't have a newspaper, so deciding I wanted to be the next Lois Lane, I set out to start one. I had no idea how much work it would be. I drew up a plan and talked to my English teacher who recommended another teacher in the department who was interested in a newspaper as well. She was gung ho about the idea and committed to being our faculty moderator.

I met with the principal to sell him on the idea. It was a tough sell; the school funded the yearbook and there wasn't room for another publication. Plus, try selling free press and freedom of speech at a Catholic high school. He gave me a chance though and allowed us to start the paper with no school help whatsoever.

An alumnus happened to be the editor of the local newspaper, and after meeting with him and pleading my case, he decided to print our paper for $100. We were in business!

All summer before my senior year, I did research and took notes on how to put together a high school newspaper and make it successful.

Senior year started, bringing the next challenge: recruiting a staff. I had a friend, KT, who was just as crazy and ambitious as I was who joined as my co-editor-in-chief. Jed, who wasn't dating me at the time but was obviously in love with me, offered to do all of the graphic and lay-out work since he was a computer geek. Our moderator asked her students if they were interested in becoming reporters and photographers. I hung fliers for our first meeting. I roped more friends into writing articles and taking photographs. We met in the moderator's classroom and had no more than a filing cabinet in the back of the room for storage and the library computers for writing articles.

I spent hours after school with KT, Jed and our graphic designer to come up with a name, header and logo. We decided on Green Ink as the name of the paper, and my graphic friend came up with an awesome logo: a shamrock (our school symbol/mascot) with an old-fashioned quill pen through it. It took three months to get our first issue out. Getting reporters to meet deadlines was nearly impossible. I asked the editor of the local paper how he did it, and he tactfully reminded me that he had a paycheck to dangle over his reporters' heads. I couldn't pay these kids. Where was their drive and dedication???

It was one of the proudest moments of my life picking up those papers in my mom's mini-van at the newspaper printing facility downtown and bringing it back to our "office" for distribution the next day.

Jed (yes, that's my boyfriend 10 years ago!), me (yes, that was me 10 years ago in relaxed-fit Express jeans & an oversized Express sweatshirt!) & KT showing off our accomplishment

We only got one more issue out my senior year, but I had left my footprint in the halls of my beloved high school. I had resurrected a student organization that had collapsed 30 years earlier.

The newspaper collapsed again a year later, but I heard a few years ago that it is up and running again. I couldn't be prouder, even though it has a different name, different format and different staff. I still like to think it's my legacy.

I had my chance to shine again last year when my department at work decided to start a newsletter. Everyone knows I freelance and had studied journalism, so they recruited me as a consultant, and then as the editor. I felt the rush of choosing a lay-out and designing a header and brainstorming a name. I chose staff carefully and assigned stories. We publish every month, and I write the editorial and edit the laid-out publication every month. I love it. It allows me to relive those glory days Bruce Springsteen sang about.


This post was inspired by Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop: Prompt 1.) Describe something you're proud of.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Days of Gratitude 4 & 5: D & E

I'm catching up today. I'm sorry I missed my Day 4 Thanksgiving post yesterday, but I got home much later than planned after dinner with friends -- which was much needed!

So, for yesterday, I am grateful for DANCE.


Since I could walk, dance has been such a huge part of my life. I started taking lessons when I was three years old, and over the years, I dipped my twinkle toes into almost every form of dance there is: ballet, tap, pointe, acrobatics, lyrical, all types of ballroom, jazz, hip-hop, contemporary... the list goes on and on.


While I stopped taking formal lessons when I was 18 and went off to college, I never stopped dancing. I took a class here and there in college, and of course I danced around my dorm room.



When I was old enough to drink, there were clubs and dancing with my girls. I went back to ballet and tap classes last year, but with the house this year, I wasn't able to continue. Yet, dance stays with me. I live vicariously through the contestents on So You Think You Can Dance; the dancers and choreographers inspire me so much. And yes, I still dance around my living room.

One of my fav dance movies: Save the Last Dance

Today, I am grateful for E-MAIL.

While I know e-mail can be a huge pain sometimes (when you have hundreds to get through for work), it's also a huge blessing (allowing you to keep in touch with family and friends who are far away). Since I am a writer, I communicate best through written word, and e-mail caters to me so well. I e-mail a ton for work, and personally I can keep in touch with my cousin in Florida and my college roommate in New York. I can get all kinds of newsletters and alerts to keep me up on all of my interests. And don't forget the shopping! Coupons and discounts and sales all hit my inbox for whenever I get the urge.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Increase the competition to better my chances...

Seems contradictory doesn't it?

Well, since I love you all, and I wouldn't mind winning... I wanted to let you know about another fabulous giveaway by Jessica at This, That & My Blog.

She is giving away any fantastic photo from Kelly Ann Studio's available for sale prints! Trust me that there are so many fabulous ones to choose from!

So, why are you still here? Go check it out!

Day of Gratitude 3: C

Like whoa! I had completely forgotten about my Day 3 What I'm Grateful for post beginning with "C" until I went to get the "C" thing I'm grateful for this morning!

So I'm a little late posting Day 3 on Day 4, but that means you just get double the fun today! Without further ado, the thing I'm grateful for {yesterday} is...


So beautiful and aromatic, comforting and uplifting. It's both a treat and a need.


I simply cannot function without my morning cup; ask Jed, he's a believer.


I thought this poster was just too funny not to share. It would look great framed in my kitchen!


And let's not forget some of my favorites! In the summer, I can't go without a few of these -- preferably French Vanilla with cream and a Splenda (it melts into cold liquids a lot better than regular sugar).


I found this and I died! Whoever created this collage is amazing, and I wish I had it in college to hang on my wall (there were four Starbucks on our campus). I don't have my Starbucks treats nearly as much anymore (it used to be at least once daily in college as they used our college points), but every so often I sneak in for some delight.
Please click it to blow it up if you can't read it.


And finally, my current obsession and staple. The past couple months, my cupboard has not been without this lovely little bag of goodness. I'm a dark girl. I like dark beers and wines. Why would my coffee be any different?

So now I'm back to my daily cup to enjoy this dark roasted goodness. Have a good day everyone! You'll hear from me later with my Day 4: "D" thing I'm grateful for!

Monday, November 2, 2009

Day of Gratitude 2: B

Ok, so these posts are kinda smushed together, sorry for that!

For this second day of gratitude, I had to come up with something beginning with a B that I'm thankful for. I came up with...


BACKYARDS! Specifically, my backyard. While it is not the nicest, largest, most elaborate backyard, I am so grateful to have a little private retreat. We have done quite a bit of work back there, which has taught me a lot about yard work, myself and my relationship! We have a lot more planned for it too; I'm very excited about the potential. For now, we have a great pea-stone patio with the perfect table for lots of friends and a cute grassy area with a gorgeous shady tree. We've had quite a few backyard BBQ's (another option for my B grateful item) with lots of friends, and the space has worked out quite well.

I could go on and on and share pictures of some of my fav inspiring backyards, but I'll keep this short and sweet so I can go cook dinner!

Day of Gratitude 1: A


This fantastic project was conceived by none other than Lindsey at Great Full Day. Her posts are so uplifting and inspiring, and they encourage me to think about what I am truly grateful for and shift my focus to those things.

I'll admit I've been struggling with this. I've been very frustrated with my life lately, and I have not felt very grateful. So, Lindsey could not have come to my rescue at a better time! I hope you will join me on this journey leading up to Thanksgiving -- the ultimate celebration of gratitude. Maybe this will help us enjoy that turkey just a little more.



Today, I am grateful for Autumn. It is not my favorite season, but I believe it is my second favorite. I love the colors. I love the crisp air giving me a respite from my beloved summer heat. I love pulling out sweaters and scarves, but not necessarily hats and mittens. I love the appearance of bright red apples and cheerful orange pumpkins. Even though I'm not in school, the season creates that anticipation and examination of back to school.

I'm grateful for Autumn because it is the perfect time for me to reflect upon my life. The year is drawing to a close, and it reminds me to evaluate my goals and where I stand. I still have two months to complete my to-do list for the year and start thinking about what next year might bring.

Happy Autumn!

F.M.M.: Halloween Edition

Hello friends, did you all have a lovely Halloween? I've been catching up on some of your update posts, but I'm very much looking forward to seeing what the rest of you were up to.

My Halloween was very relaxed, despite being invited to a costume party and to a friend's house for some horror-film watching. Jed and I chose to stay home, settle for dressing the dog up, making some American chop suey and seeing how many trick-or-treaters we'd get at the new house. {Grand total = 7} We watched the Batman marathon on ABC Family and took advantage of our extra hour of sleep.

For this Friend-Making Monday, Amber asked what your favorite Halloween candy is. While I ate several different types of candy this weekend, my absolute, all-time fav is...


What is your favorite Halloween, or anytime, candy?

Happy Monday! Hope everyone has a great start to November's first week.